To my little blessing

Dear Chance,
I can not believe that the time is almost here for you to come into this world. It's been 39 weeks today that you have been in my tummy. Time has certainly flown by. I have noticed that the closer you get to being in my arms the more I think about you, while I'm awake and while I am sleeping. I think about what you are going to look like, how big you are going to be (the doctor said you were 8.1 lbs last Friday), how much hair you are going to have on your head, and what color it will be. I wonder if you are going to sleep easily during the night or keep your dad and I up a lot :), what your first word is going to be, so many things run through my head.
I have also been thinking about what kind of mom I am going to be to you, how many things I can teach you, how I am going to act when you get sick, or fall on your knees. How overbearing I am going to be at times, and how I can wait to just give you the biggest hugs in the world.
I hope you grow up having equal parts of your dad and I, his strength, courage, honor, confidence and loyalty to friends and my compassion, love, patience and understanding. However you turn out you are going to be one extraordinary son who will be loved by so many people around you.
There are times that I feel like I am going to wake up from a dream because it is still hard for me to think that within the next week or so you are going to be coming into this world. You have given me so many blessings so far and you are not even here yet! Chance you have given me a warmth in my heart from a void that I thought would never be filled. You have given me strength to stand on my own feet and be more confident. You have shown me more patience in my life, more than what I have ever had in the past. You also have given me a smile back on my face every time I feel you wiggle in my tummy, knowing you are going to be here soon. You are such a true blessing to me and the wait is almost over until I get to meet you. I love you so much already and can not wait to hold you in my arms.
Love,
Mom